The ticket booth of wonderland

last night i dreamt a dream
i was trapped in corrdiors twirling around itself
one way lead to another
and they all lead to each other

across the walls i could see colors reflected upon the sky
across the grey fallen walls there was light
no matter how i tried to get there
i wind up ending where i stand

after considering where i am
and where i was
and where i want to me
i realized
i'm trapped inside my mind

my thoughts are the walls which bind me
but my thoughts are also the ticket out
its all a matter of choice
but what if i did seek this rainbow
isn't it still a part of my mind
and isn't the path to this rainbow paved with the same thoughts i'm trying to overcome

I'm afraid of fear itself
but i'm the engine of it all

are we not meant to be afraid
are we not meant to dread the unknown

if so.... what are the boundaries
and what if we test them
what would be the end of the journey
or would it only be a journey riding our feelings and sensations
as we wear out the little time we have left in this world

Fear
Love and Freedom are lies

and So is fear
but if it's all within me

the only ticket booth i can look forward to
is my last breath